let's play with ethnicity

It is clear to me that my thoughts are scattered like blossoms fallen from a tree
all over the ground encompassing my trunk of knowledge and power
surrounding my intuition to let you go but still I love you so
and why I do not know
I thought this time passed so that eventually I'd be able to forgive my past
my Self for loving so cruel a girl undeserving of love
way back then
and now the sex is so much better when we love and there is no hate in between my legs
her mouth is heaven compared to yours at least she can hit the spot that I need
unlike you, the pleasure was all yours,
I was the one being penetrated by your ambivalence towards women
it is clear to me that my thoughts are nebulous
beset by difficulties of the heart and mind
We trudge in murky oceans searching
for peace.

I thought with my wings I could fly but I am hesitating to jump
my fear is to fall
plunge back into a bacteria
a cancer and hell
I can't speak to you anymore. I thought I was ready to face my demons.
It's been less than two years with no break in between.
You are a reflection of myself.
A self hating little girl that never learned her lessons.
I refuse to be that tiny girl that fights for more violence.
Now, at least, I can stand on two feet instead of two knees begging
I've still got a long way to go
I can barely see the horizon, I must be so low.

wild beautiful girl,
bones I can see through
skin I can stretch over canvas.
Paint your body and make you beautiful.

Mirror, mirror on the wall, sunken stomach pulling you down to the floor.
Ankles are bruised from the heels on your feet
and your eyez turning and turning inside your skull,
this globe is overwhelmed with your present state of being.

Miss me, lovely?
We dance like the world has ended
so we have triumphantly lived our lives as best as we can right??
As best as we can??

Knuckles are bloody messed up ruins because I loved you.
My throat had lost it’s box for voice.
I’m scarred on the inside back when it mattered so much.

Wild evil demon woman, you and I are the same person.
And I ran from you in circles like a rat on a wheel.
Towards you and away from you, but always in the same direction.

Miss me Miss me Now you wanna kiss me
I’ve already eaten the apple so now I’m immune.

conversations with myself

DULCE!!!! I know you like to play games but she doesn't want you around. You are too flirtatious, wtf tryna act like your single YOURE NOT!!! Mannipulative bitch. Stop fucking playing the femme role, you know thats not you...i mean ME!! Stop fucking getting naked in public!!!!!!
>>>ohhhhhhh [heehee] you mean pictures for the whole world to see????
Yes, that's what I mean.
>>>[heehee] that's just fun and games, people are toys. Easy to manuver. Roll over, play dead for me [hehehehehee] It's the easiest game to play as a lady. femme role? Please!!! LOL I AM YOU! And I'm getting everything we need. Watch me.

http://mynameislibre.tumblr.com/post/2658947510/everyone-has-an-alter-ego-and-this-is-mine-her

God,

I'm trying to do better. Everyday is a new day to be a truer Self to me. And today I haven't moved but I know I should so I promise that I will go for a walk and eat regularly and soothe my throat with lots of tea and honey and lemon.

Total sum of all my piercings and tattoos

anchor [complete]left forearm
"truth" [complete]right forearm
honeybee "4 you" [incomplete] right forearm
angel wings [started]back
series of unfortunate events house (with tweaks)[not yet] right thigh
text from one of the books [not yet]right thigh
lines from my poetry [not yet] right arm
"pa que quiero pies si tengo alas pa volar" [not yet]back
white lace garder [not yet]left thigh
music notes [not yet] underside of left breast
"vive" and stitches over my heart [not yet] above left breast
heart shape over my nipple [not yet]left nipple
hamsa eye [not yet] left hand
something I haven't found yet for Lizzy and Susy

septum [not yet], nostril [not yet], left ear rook [not yet], ears [yes] , cartilage [not yet], nipple [coming soon], belly button [yes]

Don't you miss me baby?
pretty lady don't you miss me?
You wanna kiss me through the screen oh baby
I wanna kiss your cheeky apple bottom tush oh baby so good
youre a picky candy eater but I'll give you homemade sweets
oh baby
missy sexy muchachita es tan linda, lickable if you ask me
dont you miss me? honey skin dew in between those thighs oh yes I do
those skies in your eyez, so pretty when you orgasm
it's like the sun is setting on their horizons
Your sugar dripping down carmalized skin, oh baby
oh baby.
Lollypop that I can lick and suck, oh baby
come kiss and fuck, you wanna kiss me through the screen
I see your lips are anticipating
this kiss through electric wiring oh baby oh baby
I wanna kiss your mouth like a fruit,
wrap my tongue against your flesh and sweet tush oh baby so good
oh baby, this tastes so good.